Two Posts In One Day But...

I finally figured out what I wanted and needed to say thanks to a wonderful Elder friend of mine that I was impressed upon to write this evening.

...I want to see about getting a current Temple Recommend. I've never had one! I've had one of those temporary pieces of paper but... I want a card to tuck into my wallet. I want to return to the temple. It has been over a year since I've done any work for the dead or been able to step foot inside the temple. I think this is, finally, the last step I need to take to heal completely from the wrongs of the past and the hurts inflicted upon my heart, the loneliness of my soul.
Being the right person instead of looking for the right person is my goal for the next two months. I am renewing my energy toward scripture reading, personal prayer, journal (and for that instance, blog) writing, and my temple worthiness. I want to get to the temple at least once within the next two months. The Lord and I both know this is what I need. I'm ready to stop waiting for the storm to pass and learn to dance in the rain. Ditch the umbrella and shoes. I'll run into the arms of my Savior that stands in the midst of my pain and trials, my loneliness and heartache, my feeling out of place, my general feeling of unworthiness.
I know He loves me and has been waiting for me to finally return to His warm embrace. I've made Him wait. I've made Him wait over a year to hold me again.
I'll stop my resistance and let Him heal me so I can grow. I know that my Redeemer lives. What comfort this sweet sentence gives. He lives, He lives who once was dead. He lives, my ever-living head.

Cassidy